Disappointment

I find few things more disappointing than when we come to realize that sometimes the people who should care, are the ones who dont. When its those who you do the most for, who can rely on you for anything, are the ones you cant rely on at all. Any relationship should be a give and take one. And I'm not saying that we're all out to get something, I'm talking about small things. A kind gesture can be enough. A compliment, asking how someone's day was, those kind of things. But it's often the people we want to rely on the most, that let us down the hardest. I mean...hey, I'm not asking to be told how wonderful I am 70 times a day (once a day will do just fine), or to be constantly praised, or to be given things in return for favors...but to be let down when asking for the smallest favors? To have to ask other people for help because those who promised help arent around when it comes down to it (and when I say help I'm talking about things like "hey, please lend me $10 for gas" or "please come look at cars with me so I dont get ripped off"). Really is that asking too much? Because it wasnt too much to ask me to drag my ass all over town to run errands. What is that you say? I offered? Sure I did, because I said I'd help, so I stick to my word. But do I look like I want to sit in traffic for several hours getting to several different places that certain people are too lazy to go to themselves? Did I ever mention how I love love LOVE having my phonecalls ignored when I'm calling about something I was asked to call about? Do I give out the vibe that I enjoy asking random strangers to do things for me like change my tire because a certain person cant be fucked to answer the phone? Apparently I do. But then again, I can only blame myself. Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice....Some people just have to be given up on, some people are just not worth the everlasting grain of hope that the next time they will pull through. And you know what? Being there for someone at your own convenience really just doesn't cut it anymore. Yes this was a completely pointless and certainly not very entertaining mini-rant.